Monday, August 27, 2007

Dedication to you, my friend ...

Gaining through losing, by Hirai Ken

めぐり来る季節ごとに  この手から零れ落ちるもの
立ち止まり振り替えれば 寂しげに僕を見てる

いつも、いつでも 誇れるものを一つ信じてきた日々

出会いと別れを繰り返し   歩いて来た道を
かけがえのないものと思う  今の自分ならば

がむしゃらな情熱さえ     懐かしく思う日が来ても
静かなる強さひめた      ともし火をかかげていよう

自由愛用手放した時     初めてその意味を知る

痛みと喜び分かち合い    きずな深めた人の
飾ることない工場の粒    今も胸に抱いて

雨雲切れて光が差す
大地が歌い始める

We've been gaining one good thing through losing another
I'm so proud to be with you, my love
Now you know the meaning of SUNSHINE AFTER RAIN
Let me tell you LIFE IS GOOD, my friends

Be strong, my friend. I may not know how hurt or confusing you are now... Be strong and you can go through it, as the time comes, you'll be a better woman... I know it's always easier to say than to go through it. I knew you went through a lot, and you will too this time.... There is always a Sunshine After Rain !!!

Friday, August 24, 2007

My first CC

Yay (^_^)v I get my very first own credit card ... This is the second time i've applied for a credit card. The first time was turned down by AEON bank. Now I've got IKEA Alliance CC ... kekeke ... with 6K ... woohooo....Well, i dont really wish to get a cc this soon. The sooner i have my own cc, i'll spend like hell... errghh... well, i just keep it in my purse, and pretend i dont have it yet.... i always believe that we should not spend the money that we do not have ... cc may helps us in emergency situations BUT will also destroy us in no time if we do not control our spendings ~~~~

Monday, August 20, 2007

The money conversation

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My gosh, my dear little car is drying me up ~~~ Time flies so fast …. It’s already 1 year …. YES, it’s 2007 now!!! It seems like I just get my car last week …. And now I have to prepare to pay for my car insurance … It’s more than RM 1,000 …. There goes all my hard earned money …. I wonder if I can save up some money for my future …. With my earnings now and my expenses, I doubt so…

My facial package left few more rounds, and I didn’t see any visible improvement yet … and I will surely buy another package after I finished up with Lancome …. I’ll go for Sothys next … even expensive ~~~ I hope I can see some visible improvement!! Apart from my face, I need to do something with my hair …. I never changed my hairstyle for more than a year … I’m so bored with it …. I wonder if the stylish is to plain with imaginations and creativeness…. All I need is to have some new improvement for my hair with the condition, I still want my hair to be black in color, straight and long … all they can provide is to trim a lil bit at the root … no patterns no new styles … boring …. Be creative people, creative …. Always think out of da box … the things that I hated the most is that when we pay for service we expect to get advice from the experts, not telling what I think… sometimes, we pay for opinions, not only for the service ….

Few days ago, I went to 1U Missy Nails … you know what, I will never ever going back there again, even if it is FREE !!! And my advice? Strongly not recommended to visit Missy Nails. NEVER. Here goes my story …. Once I stepped in, 3 lady staffs were sitting there STATIC … not even any greetings from them… so, fine, next I’m looking for colors… I ask for recommendation, and she said it depends what color you like…. I know what color I like, I’m asking for recommendation …. I need new ideas… new colors to try on … dang ~~ fine she is not helping…. So I choose to have normal traditional French Manicure instead. Here it goes… I took the Spa package … while she is preparing and I set my butt on one of the station… still another 2 ladies, sit like they have no backbones…. So now the manicurist, soak my hand into the spa bowl and the massages begins… and now I get to notice once she massage my hand a stroke, she rub it on her hand twice …. Wow…. Now I know why her hand is so soft… Next, applying scrubs… and again, she rub it on my hand once and twice on hers… It’s unfair !!!! Fine, am not looking at it anymore … I looked else where … One of the Chinese lady staff, were flirting on the phone… irritating …. *Phone ringing* …. My manicurist phone rang… she picked up, she is talking while serving me… my patience rate drops… She picked up calls for 2 times while scrubbing my hand… ergh … Next, the manicurist searching for the tool here and there walking here and there, at last she found all the tools… and now she starts to cut out the dead skins…. As she cutting my dead skin around my fingers, I get this very uneasy feeling … more towards scared feelings … as she is going for my last 2 fingers, OUCH !!! She cut my finger…. It is so painful… and my finger bleed!! she gave me a stupid look… and I said it hurts!! Well, she apologized. Fine. So she continued, and her phone rang again, so pick up the phone and chat … this time long enough to gets on my nerves. My patience level drops to 0. She is on her phone twice while removing dead skins around my fingers. And now, she is even cut my inner nail flesh !!!! I screamed at her … and she tried to explain it wasn’t her fault… I said she shouldn’t cut my flesh … it’s my flesh …. A normal manicurist will know the depth limit of one’s finger is. I started to curse in my heart. She is lucky that I didn’t slap her on her face for cutting my flesh!! Bitch… This is the most poor manicure service that I’ve been to… never again in my life will go to MISSY NAILS !! and I’m going to spread my how unlucky trip to MISSY NAILS!! DO NOT VISIT MISSY NAILS, you pay to get hurt !!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

決意の朝に

Ketsui no Asa ni by Aqua Timez

どうせならもう ヘタクソな夢を描いていこうよ          
どうせならもう ヘタクソで明るく愉快な愛のある夢を
「気取んなくていい かっこつけない方がおまえらしいよ」

一生懸命になればなる程 空回りしてしまう僕らの旅路は
小学生の、手と足が一緒に出ちゃう行進みたい
それもまたいいんじゃない? 生きてゆくことなんてさ
きっと 人に笑われるくらいがちょうどいいんだよ

心の奥の奥 閉じ込めてた本当の僕
生身の36度5分 飾らずにいざwe don’t stop
けどまだ強がってるんだよ まだバリアを張ってるんだよ
痛みと戦ってるんだよ

辛い時 辛いと言えたらいいのになぁ
僕達は強がって笑う弱虫だ
淋しいのに平気な振りをしているのは
崩れ落ちてしまいそうな 自分を守るためなのさ

僕だけじゃないはずさ 行き場のないこの気持ちを
居場所のないこの孤独を 抱えているのは…

他人の痛みには無関心
そのくせ自分の事となると不安になって
人間を嫌って 不幸なのは自分だけって思ったり
与えられない事をただ嘆いて 三歳児のようにわめいて
愛という名のおやつを座って待ってる僕は
アスファルトの照り返しにも負けずに
自分の足で歩いてく人達を見て思った
動かせる足があるなら
向かいたい場所があるなら この足で歩いてゆこう

もう二度とほんとの笑顔を取り戻すこと
できないかもしれないと思う夜もあったけど

大切な人達の温かさに支えられ
もう一度信じてみようかなと思いました
                     
辛い時 辛いと言えたらいいのになぁ
僕達は強がって笑う弱虫だ
淋しいのに平気な振りをしているのは
崩れ落ちてしまいそうな 自分を守るためだけど


過ちも傷跡も 途方に暮れ べそかいた日も
僕が僕として生きてきた証にして
どうせなら これからはいっそ誰よりも
思い切りヘタクソな夢を描いてゆこう
言い訳を片付けて 堂々と胸を張り
自分という人間を 歌い続けよう

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Our New House

This is the second day of the renovation work. They put up all the air-cond piping. and this is how it looks like... heehee... the next step would be doing the ceiling...


Since the tiles looks great, we didnt plan to change the bathroom tiles... at first we tot we wanted to do some baliness feel, well, that cost too much though...



And by using my Sony Alpha lense, im proudly present~~~ the view of uptown from my master bedroom window!!! Ermm, i think it can zoom further... maybe in my next visit, i'll shoot the KL view ...



Age does matter?

Wooo hoooo.... im a year younger !! yes, age does matter!!


You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Life lesson

I found an article which helps me a lot in dealing with my current situation! It called, "How to Cope with the Jerk at Work". If i found this 1 week earlier, I wont be so depressed and hurtful.

"For those of us with a sensitive streak, this type of behavior can be hurtful too. What did you do to her anyway? Why won't she give you a fair shot? As natural as it is to fixate on the situation, if it's not affecting your daily working life or your career path, refuse to take it personally and go about your business. Focus on your reasons for being at work and save your energy for the people in the office who deserve it. " source from Yahoo! Health

I have to admit, im a super sensitive streak! I'll take note on each of the tiny little things that people do sometimes... Well, i guess i need to keep reminding myself, the reason why i wanted to work here. There are things for me to learned & gained from here.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

心の痛み、誰にもわらない ~~~

Im so depress ... my heart fills with anger, anger、 anger ... These few weeks are just as bitter as bitter gourd ... huhuhuhuu T___T'' I dont know how much longer i have to bear with all this nonsense. I've tried to ignore, to let it down, to sweep it aside... but the endless bullets keep shooting my patience!! every day i ended up with a broken heart and with more anger... I know myself very well. I cant deal with all these politics, one day i will explode and break down. People keep saying, "It will go better" "Just a few more weeks" "Just one more month" ARGGH.... Help.... im not a very forgiving type of person... if someone treated me badly, i will remember it for the rest of my life!!! I hated it when people telling lies... giving excuses just to cover their ass from burning n pushing the fault to others. I always believe, if we treat ppl well, there is a return... i always tell myself to treat ppl well, so they will treat us well too... but, it's never the case!! never!!!

心弱いの人間は上達出来ない・・・だから、自分の心を強くして欲しい。。。高い壁をぶつけても、まけない!!どうやってひどい事にされても負けないんだ!自分を強くなれると努力するんだ!あんな最低な人間になりたくない!!もう、あんな人間とはかかわりたくないんだ。。。顔までも見たくないほど嫌いんだ!!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Making excuses ~

I wonder if it is a nature for people to run away from mistakes, run away from admitting they did something not rightful? In the other side, people will always boast how well they did ... I wonder if it is a nature for people to make excuses to cover up their ass in the sake of doesnt want to admit that they did wrongly. Why it has to be in this way? Well, never admitting mistakes is one thing, the most funny thing is, people who make excuses and try to push the responsibilities to another person without feeling guilty... this is indeed a very very high tactic .. haha ... I wonder if this is about how we being brought up since a child....