Too Risk or not to Risk?

Should i take the risk to be responsible for an event? It is a good learning point, starting point, but with a huge responsibilities to carry on. It is either i make it or i'll get myself fired... or dont risk it and stay bored to death everyday in da office ~~(o.O)~~~ Grass will be always greener on the other side ,,, i sees marketing job as a fun thing but the truth may not be that beautiful... People leaving and moving on to make another chapter of their life ... and I am just starting my chapter 1 and sad to say, IAM LOST ... (.")
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Well, today i get to realise that when a person wears differently, they have different outlook and u tend to see them differently! Smart casuals, semi formal is good!! should change my style ... or should i say, adding in more options?? Must starts to put on accessories .. it can change the look completely!! Awwww... i should but that pants from TOPSHOP x(^.^)x Now i must change the boutique range... no more G2000, no more Padini, no more , no more ... Changing to TOPSHOP, Esprit, hummm,,, will add on later when i spot one.. must starts to change my shopping route!! I dont want to wear da same clothes that everyone been wearing now ... when i go for lunch, i saw another lady wearing da same shirt that i have .. that doesnt feels good!

Confusing

It's time for my confirmation I guess... I did well enough? Am I fit to be in this line? Questions poping out and im doubting my abilities. Marketing job seems so tempting to me, and would like to have a try! I dont really know what I want, all i want is to test out the job to see wheater im fit into it or not... (*_*)'' Honestly speaking, im not really into sales job.. getting new prospect is so hard and i feel so demotivated... the reason im still hanging with this job is the SALARY and the COMMISSION... everything falls back to $$$ .. Do i really need to read up all the self-improvement books that are available in the bookstore? Well, i do see ppl enjoying reading it... well, book really isnt my style!! I really need directions.... Im so lost again (@_@)
Working isnt fun to me at all!! Weekdays, Mon to Fri is so stressfull for me!! I really need to digg out what my interests are and make use of it. (^.^)v
Well, back to my shopping spree, i saw nice working pants at TOPSHOP ... it's 160 bucks! should i get it this month??

Sales again ~~

sales is coming one after another ... (*_^)v
watson RM 1 sales .. weeeee ... it's time to stock up all the facial mask supply !! i just can't resist to buy buy buy ... when u think of the second item that u buy is just RM 1 !!! I have to remind myself to do facial at least 2 days once ... let's see if there is any improvements .. hehe ..
Anyway, i just bougth the sketch book and it's time to stick all my profiles in... 2 years down the road, take it out again and see weather it matches ... talking about profiles ... management is doing confirmation appraisal... sobsob... dont think i did good also .. sure no increasement X__x'' by the way, should i post pictures here?? hmmm... means have to take photo everyday?? (*__*)
It's time to get active in the Nescafe Kickstart forum !! must remember to collect the bonus point everyday ..hehe .. my aim: to bid for the shopping voucher !!

Time to have a change !

I feel so plain and ordinary ... i need to re-build myself to be a better person!!
Ever since i came back from japan, my life is a ROUTINE~~~
wake up> breakfast> work>lunch>work>dinner>surfing>sleep ..
And I dont really enjoying my work tooo...
There is something that i had in my mind that i want to accomplish this year.
1) Reduce weight
2) Changing style
3) Self-improvement
4) Changing wardrobe collection
5) Increase Savings