My lowest Month of the year!

Too many things happened to me this month.... Can't really cope with it .... I've been running away from all the realities all these while, at least for 2 years ... Never wanted to face it ... not even now. At one point I decided to leave the country and flee to Japan, where I've spent my free, beautiful, wonderful year without much worries. For the entire year, I've never want to think about all the problems that I have back in here. Call me a coward. Call me irresponsible. I hate dealing with issues. Even until now ... But it hits me back now... for all the years that i've been running away. Now I felt so vulnerable and insecure. T___T